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Saturday, 28 November 2009

They Only See The Outside Of Me


My heart is empty .. My sadness grew .. I silently wept Lost and alone. I just can’t bare Or even more crying. I can’t handle much Of anyone’s changing. I need someone here to do what everybody never would ... Paint a permanent smile, the way everybody never could. I try everyday to be strong, then I wonder if this has all been worth while. How many times must I whisper these words "how much longer must i ache for all of this?" If life was a dream, no tear would fall from eyes .. If life was a dream, i’d never feel alone .. If life was a dream, no plans would be betrayed .. so i don't need to be afraid. But now i'm standing all alone in the dark, heart throbbing to the pain. I know this time i won't be fine .. i don't know what am i suppose to say, but it doesn't matter .. So Im just going to go on and act like Im okay.

The tears that i hides

my heart giving up to let me die.

Can anyone take away these lies?

i really did try, but my tears keep running.

Unhappiness is now a fact, don't know how to carry on

Freedoms gone away
Because things as I liked them have changed

Everything just keeps falling in and out of me. So many holes within.. Inner confusion storms my head .. If only I could explain, so it could be understood. Just this once .. help me learn to live again .. I walk through this world, holding my head down, I’d like to be happy again. I’d like to go back before the clouds came, before the rain started falling. I did nothing wrong, and so here I am. Thinking, pondering what happened .. I lay perplexed, unaware of what went wrong, but on moments like these all i can do is wish .. that is how my breath ended, trapped within a space between Heaven and Hell, with my silently screaming verses.

Thursday, 26 November 2009

03.12 AM
26 November 2009
Thursday

i skipped yesterday classes because of my fever..ouch..and suddenly i've been thinking about my best lecture ever .. when the last time he asked me "do u wanna be my friends?" i answered "yes of course i do..why not?" and he answered "really?"
hmmm...do u guys think i've answered something wrong?

But now i know i must to thank him. He will back to his country soon :(

Thank you my teacher, for lending an ear

When I had things to say
You showered love on me lavishly
When no one seemed to care
You brought me joys untold
To fill my heart with moments of gold
I would have felt isolated and lonely
If you had not been there
I lack the words to let you know
How much you mean to me,
But I will profusely thank God for you
Until the Eternity.

And i hope u can trust me when i said "yes of course" coz u seems didn't believe me :(
Wish u all the best Mr...
:)
Promise me u'll back someday here ...

Saturday, 24 October 2009

Making a Blog Isn't As Hard As Peoples Said.

Fiiuuuhhh ... Finally, i could write a blog. So, this is my first time making a blog here. My Lecture said this will become our next assignment, but i swear i have been thinking to create a blog on my own. Hahahaha ... well, whatever i have learned a lot from this life, how do we must to keep on walking for our future. I will share some of my stories after this about how hard a teenager must to stand up for what is right, actually the biggest problem is only about difference thinking between teenagers and their parents nowadays. I'm sure it will become so interesting as a topic because it happens to all teenagers in the world. I will not teach you guys how to brake some rules from your parents, but i just want to share, hope you could learn from my experiences and would love to hear any of your experiences also. Life is about living, how you create your own life and how you get everything what you want to. Stand up for what's right ! :D