Saturday, 28 November 2009

They Only See The Outside Of Me

My heart is empty .. My sadness grew .. I silently wept Lost and alone. I just can’t bare Or even more crying. I can’t handle much Of anyone’s changing. I need someone here to do what everybody never would ... Paint a permanent smile, the way everybody never could. I try everyday to be strong, then I wonder if this has all been worth while. How many times must I whisper these words "how much longer must i ache for all of this?" If life was a dream, no tear would fall from eyes .. If life was a dream, i’d never feel alone .. If life was a dream, no plans would be betrayed .. so i don't need to be afraid. But now i'm standing all alone in the dark, heart throbbing to the pain. I know this time i won't be fine .. i don't know what am i suppose to say, but it doesn't matter .. So Im just going to go on and act like Im okay.

The tears that i hides

my heart giving up to let me die.

Can anyone take away these lies?

i really did try, but my tears keep running.

Unhappiness is now a fact, don't know how to carry on

Freedoms gone away
Because things as I liked them have changed

Everything just keeps falling in and out of me. So many holes within.. Inner confusion storms my head .. If only I could explain, so it could be understood. Just this once .. help me learn to live again .. I walk through this world, holding my head down, I’d like to be happy again. I’d like to go back before the clouds came, before the rain started falling. I did nothing wrong, and so here I am. Thinking, pondering what happened .. I lay perplexed, unaware of what went wrong, but on moments like these all i can do is wish .. that is how my breath ended, trapped within a space between Heaven and Hell, with my silently screaming verses.

Thursday, 26 November 2009

03.12 AM
26 November 2009

i skipped yesterday classes because of my fever..ouch..and suddenly i've been thinking about my best lecture ever .. when the last time he asked me "do u wanna be my friends?" i answered "yes of course i do..why not?" and he answered "really?" u guys think i've answered something wrong?

But now i know i must to thank him. He will back to his country soon :(

Thank you my teacher, for lending an ear

When I had things to say
You showered love on me lavishly
When no one seemed to care
You brought me joys untold
To fill my heart with moments of gold
I would have felt isolated and lonely
If you had not been there
I lack the words to let you know
How much you mean to me,
But I will profusely thank God for you
Until the Eternity.

And i hope u can trust me when i said "yes of course" coz u seems didn't believe me :(
Wish u all the best Mr...
Promise me u'll back someday here ...